女人的选择

眼泪差点翻坠

我用酒杯防卫

乾掉这一杯

我和你今生无交界

摆出你的坚决

我说什么都狼狈

放掉这一切我是落叶

你的冷静太冷

我的痛心太痛

就在这一夜

我和你缘份已冻结

两干两百零一夜

我只求一个了解

你却不承认你已爱谁

你的眼怎会看见我心碎

这女人陪我度过多少夜

你这女人陪我度过多少夜

也许我曾经背弃你脱轨

你怎么赐我唯一死罪

全世界谁会在乎我心碎

难道你没有一丝感觉

女人的选择完美又绝对

难道要我向你下跪

女人的选择无情又无悔

我应该拿什么挽回

Mood....Affection of the day...

waking up in da morning, everything seems to be the same...usual day, usual routine.. somehow usual feeling.. feeling of lost somewhere.. feeling excited for work.. feeling of words cant really describe...i think this is wad we call mood?somehow yes i think...well, mood in the morning really does affect our day... it decides how our day is gonna be.. a productive one? a one well spent? or a day wasted jus like that...as for me, that complicated feeling, or special feeling within me had been the one bothering me lately, rather than all those routine chores..choose the word 'chores' as it repeats itself everyday.. though work might seems to be quite interesting sometimes.. meeting people.. doing something i have never done before... jus as lately, i have been given a job to track tyres... 130++ of them.. to be the tyre's historian... to track where it goes, which doctor it consult, what major operation each and everyone went through... and most important, its date of birth and date of death...all these doesnt affects me much.. doesnt change the mood of my day much.. cos its work, work that had to be solved in a way or another.. its the feelings within me that is commanding most of my mood now i would say.. except when i am busy with work...though, getting your mail, especially noticing it first thing when i got up from bed is really the nicest feeling i had... the feeling that has its ability to change the mood for my whole day...haha...it really feels so nice...haha...am i kinda too much? i have got no answer also... this is already kinda non-sense dy... but i am just speaking my heart here... Mood really have its own affection... and mood is something as subjective as feelings...and i am thankful that i have a special one with me now..

Crush? Love? Admire? or jus a special feeling??

Is it a crush? Love? Admire or jus a special feelings towards someone?? I think the only way to know it is to test it through a test, the test of time... and somehow faith...which is a test, a very stringent one.. which requires its test material to be solid enough and also being able to withstand the massive pressure of the test, the consequences it will lead to... every aspects which the mind can think of..but, time wil tell me all... be it true o not.. be it the ending which i hoped it to be o not...which is somehow kinda funny, for the time we spent it short.. wad can i expect? wadever it is, only time and faith is able to decide which it is... still running clearly in my head then....God bless...

Complicated... Its really complicated...funny?harsh? wad are all these...??

complicated heart... complicated thinking.. complicated feelings.... which seems to have no end to it.... why am i in this lately? am i doin the right thing?? is it the correct person? never had this kinda feeling for 2 yrs plus...lately, it struck me, a person whom i also dunno why jus i had this kinda special feeling for her... its really somehow words cant explain... somehow freaky of myself..thinking that i can let go... but not till today... work is the only way to keep myself from wondering around with my thoughts... though the time spent together is not long..i jus dono why i got this kinda special feeling towards her...maybe this is why people say feeling is something beyond our control.. it jus comes and goes as it like.. without any reason...presently, it may sounds something impossible for me, but miracles do happen.. for some reason i believe, jus like human do change.. hope this is going to be kinda reality for me..its really like dreaming... day dreaming..of something too far away... far beyond my reach on the long stretch of horizon...but no matter how far it is, i will still reach out for u.... my motto..my stronghold of words... >>Victory belongs to those who believe in it the most and the longest...do sincerely hope that i will be granted a chance, a fair one.. in which i place my hope of success on... haha... thinking too much.. God Bless then...To you, all da best... take care..

Feelings?....

Someone tell me wad is feelings? its something so abstract, something tat doesnt tells u that it us coming... something that just pops up from ur heart.. something so natural... its so nice to be with it... to enjoy it...but somehow, its really heart wrenching when things jus don go the way we want it, hoped it to be.. I am kinda in a state of wrenched...don ask me why...jus it is...2 yrs plus i never felt like tat b4, for lately, it came and it goes just like tat..God knows what is happening to me..

Here I am... Back... WondEring...

here i am, back in Kuching dy... wondering wad will life gonna be after quitting USM.. came back here on da 15th, midnight flight from KL to Kuching... hows life gonna be after quitting Uni?? only God noes this time.. and i am handing everything to him.. having faith that he already has plans for me..maybe it is his will also, for me to get out from Riam, going into USM and now quitting USM.. its a taste of life... as i had never, or seldom tasted the taste of being such a 'failure' before... its really kinda test for me, to benchmark my level of bearing with all these 'thoughts and feelings' of failure.. not really failure i meant here, jus accepting my limitations, the fact that i don like computer science at all... tats all maybe.. but wadever it is, it still takes time to get rid of all those thoughts and feelings that i have with me now... Work gonna start on Monday.. so will be enjoying my weekend... how to enjoy i also have no idea...well, now i believe everything is predestined, everything is arranged dy for us.. its only up to us to make the best out of it.. no point for us to be mumbling, blaming whoever it is for the fact we have to face eventhough we may not like it... its up to us to think how things looks like.. its up to us to take things a different way, be it an optimistic way or pesimistic way.. either way will determine how we live life on with the fact we have to face... in a different way...Our eyes see what the minds want to see... so as for me, rather being mad at whoever, may it my parents for pulling me out from Riam, or God for playong around with me ( and i don mean it here ).. it would be better for me to make life now, presently the best out of it... wad is done cannot be undone.. and i strictly don like U-turning.. i don like going back to things that have already had been done and try to undo it.. tats not me.. Life is Beautiful... So let embrace ourselves for it... Its not the end for me, but its jus the beginning of an new journey in life i supposed... God Bless us All...

Sick, Tired...Enough!!!

As i am landed in this now, my current situation, who is there to blame?? no one!! absolutely no one.. why i came to Penang?? many would have asked since i liked my course so much in Riam, miri and is the course which i have chosen my own, based on my own discretion... why i changed?? why i came to USM, PenaNG??Trying to be strong is certainly hard, but still i try... i am also only jus an odrinary human... an approaching 20yrs old person.. not anyone extraordinary... Coming to USM is merely jus 'ok lah, since my parents wants me to come so much, since they have high hopes in me, i also want them to be able to attend convocation in 3 yrs time in a local uni.. so give it a try..." a degree is better than a advanced diploma... i used to say ppl studyin computer science is someone who don noes wad is behind the scences, how is its future... wad it involves in work... or even what is it all about.. and here i am, landed myseld in USM.. for sure, when people ask, u sure o not.. still remembering wee khee and arden asked me during lunch in lundu, u sure o not? u sure is this wad u wan?? to be frank, i came here not cos i have interest in it.. i might be good in application programs, but not studying the functionality of a coomputer, logic codes, Boolean algebra, C++ and the worst part of it, DIscrete Mathematics.. what is this 2006????!!! i am the first one to go study.. 1 January, where all my stpM mates are there, back in kuching, enjoying their hols.. i never regreted... for studying in Riam.. have quite sometime adapting to study life... finally adapted, doin pretty fine with it.. there comes the result of uni application.. if i had not came here.. i will be shining in RIam.. as i know i will...but hell...though its really too late to say this kinda thing now.. going back to Riam after all this?? do anyone ever think of how i feel?? how much courage i have to take out to make the decision of discontinuing USM and now ask me go back to RIam??? everyone wil be asking?? what are u doin?? tat kinda view really makes me feels bad.. John Wong may say i can go back with the 3 distinction i have got.. but hell.. what he knows?? he noes $$$ only for me.. he is not teaching.. i missed automatic transmission ard... a major part in a vehicle.. involving fluid controls which is something that need explanation, time to understand.. another thing is German... missing 2 months in a foreign language course is something u cant jus go back in sit back in the same batch... i don have that confidence to catch back everything even if i go back to Riam immediately after leavin USM.. ah!!! shit la.. wad is all these??? what the fuck la.. really making me sick and tired... who i am??? chameleon ah?? can adapt to here and there meh??changin here and there... Miri-Penang-Miri??? hell... what is this?? something funny?? maiku... siaw ah>>> what am i doin??? stupid...really stupid... really very sick and tired of all these hell dy...enough man... i wont wanna be influenced by anyone this time... enough... stop flooding me with all the info, comments!! i wanna think myself... i had been such an stupid 'obedient' boy.. following each and every will... without asking myself..Is this wad i want?? give it a try, who knows?? is my motto before... no more!! enough.. enough of trying!! enough!! REALLY tired... tired...i wont jus die off here... its not the end.... really sorry, i don mean to blame my parents here... i noe that they are jus worried bout me, care bout me... wanting to give me the best... but hey.... let me have my own space can?? i have been so protected since i was borned to this world.. over somehow... till i feel that i am someone whom is very funny behaving, topics that my peers talk bout is something that seems so alien to me...wad i noe?? fire drills?? HSSE?? i am glad i noe all those.. but i do wan a life of an ordinary teenager also... make my own decision... i am grateful and certainly thankful for everything that mum and dad had given to me... but i think this time, its a good lesson... i think its a callin... a callin for me to do things, think of things on my own now... family love is good, it is unformidable... everyone needs it... and i am grateful, thankful to be blessed with such a loving parents... i want a break this time... really a break... really need to sit down and think properly wad i am going to do next step... work or study??
or study part time... goin back to Riam is something i dare not even think of, don have the courage to do it also for now... certainly i wont wanna join back in the middle of the semester like this... i noe h0w it feels to be lost in ur studies.. not knowing a single thing wad the lecturer is talking bout... same applies to automotive.. its easy when i can catch the jeese of it.. but going in i the middle like this will land me into the same thing here in USM... will be lost again... enough... going back next year?? see how first.. i wil have to make my stand firm this time... state it clearly.. my plan now is to go back, learn everything, every single thing of operation work in MS... management part as well... aiming for an 'A' for the coming PSP audits... tats my plan for now.. study?? really makes me afraid of it now... i have phobia in books dy...and even adapting to environment... tired...sick... all sorts of feeling...one thing i felt the most is that i have lost my self respect, respect from my friends.. their views on me... which i have built with time all these while.. everything is ruined with this incident... of course i might sound ok... wad to do?? someone teach me... wad to do?? can i say not ok?? even if i say not ok i have to carry on with life... so better make it ok rather than keep saying on not ok... i want to do something that i feel comfortable with this time... and think properly of the course i wanna take.. if there is... i used to look at my seniors whom have changed course in uni in a diff view before... and God knows it happens to me now... tell me, how can i accept this as if nothing has ever happened?? haiz..."hey calvin, hows life?"... "okok lor"... this is the phrase, the phrase we used to type in message, msn when keeping in touch with friends... In Miri, that okok is something that comes from fact... In penang, its something that i have to bear with... no use for me complanin now, regretting o even blaming ppl... things that are done cannot be undone.. I am 20 dy... i am really worried that i will be still a person not established by 27... really worried...worrying wont help... since this has happened... its wiser for me to plan, have a strategic plan for myself, rather than listening to ppl, take up courses and only to find out i cant do, dont like... be it work first, plan for course... tats my stand.. at least for the time being... worried, nervous, mad at myself, feeling foolish, a joke of myself, sad, sorry are all feelings that i have now with me...even till now i still cant really accept the fact that i am facing now... what situation i am in now... really like a piece of shit...hopeless piece of shit... high hopes, someone confident, strong, speaker of notes, high archiever are wad Ida used to say i am... ha.. really felt sorry bout it, funny, mad, lots more.. cant describe in words... those words i may feel matched me before...now?? wait til i get it back,, after proving i am one... worth those phrases.. Thank you everyone, friends, parents, all those that might have walked thru my life, leaving a footprint or not.. thank you.. no matter wad happen, i will be strong... jus its a change of strategy now... I still believe Victory Belongs to those who Believes in it the most and the Longest... I will hold on to that... God be with me this time...

Hard to Say I'm Sorry

Hard to Say I'm Sorry, by Chicago

Everybody needs a little time away, I heard her say, from each other,

Even lovers' need a holiday, far away from each other.

Hold me now, Its hard for me to say i am sorry,

I jus wan to to stay.

After all that we've been through, I will make it up to you. I promise to.

And after all that's been said and done,

You're just the part of me I cant let go

Couldn't stand to be kept away jus for the day from your body

Wouldn't wanna be swept away, far away from the one that I love.

Hold me now. It's hard for me to say I'm sorry. I jus want you to know.

Hold me now. I really want to tell you I'm sorry. I could never let u go.

After all that we've been through, I will make it up to you. I promise to.

And after all that's been said and done,

You're jus the part of me I cant let go

After all that we've been through, I will make it up to you, I promise to.

You're gonna be the lucky one.

The Hardest Decision I have ever made....

After asking myself, is this what i wan to do?? Can i cope?? which is the most important part of it.. asking myself for countless weeks, since it all started in USM, Penang when i was offered a degree course here, when i get to know what this course really does... after trying hard, trying different methods to try cope with the maths, finally i pour out all my feelings last night.. what i was thinking, what that i had been keeping to myself since it all started, to look jus ok from outside.. finally it burst... i cant carry on like this.. doing things blindly, without knowing its objective, knowing its logic behind.. how can a person have a lasting journey like this?? its like sailing in an open sea, hoping to find land without having a compass... only depending on the sun.. though we all know sun changes direction from east to west a day.. from sunrise to sunset... i dun wanna cheat myself anymore... i have to admit i am blessed with exam luck all these while.. from spm to stpm... 5c for addmx in spm and merely a C in stpm.. all is luck... ppl may say.. u pass wad.? i know myself more than anyone else i supposed.. i know how is my maths.. and in computer science, u cant jus forget bout the discrete mx part of it.. cos its interelated... even programmin in C++, putting problems into mathematical expression. i am really not someone to do maths... i know what i can do, what i cant do.. i have my own limitations.. and i have to admit tat and face the fact..i really have quite sometime thinking, trying not to accept the fact that i cant do tis course, maybe can, but not knowing the important part of it, its ethics, its purpose.. i don wanna do a course, jus for exams and for the piece of degree... tats self betrayal... i don wan that.. cant pass my ownself...cant do things blindly.. i may pass my maths exam.. cos its open book... but how long and how far can i survive in uni still remains a big question mark... a very uncertain future... and i am already 20 yrs of age this year.. haven even done anything significant, anything fruitful... whats life like this?? and to be in such a position, an uncertain future.. i really cant do it... i need to have a clear view of wad am i doin.. wads its prospect.. some might be wondering why i left Riam at the first place... since i am doin quite well there.. well, maybe thats God's will.. everything happen for a reason.. this year, particularly this year, 2006 till today has been quite a year for me... changes are tremendous, moving from a place to one, taking up course ppl dont, making decisions that are kinda weird.. changes that i have to adapt, thoughts and views of others, my parents, friends and many whom are concern have to be considered whenever i make a decision.. from going to Riam, which is solely my own decision, will, to leavin Riam, coming to Penang and now to give up computer science in USM, Penang is really very challenging for me... really test my adaptability, courage and also faith in God, which is the most important part of it... this year is really a very 'special and hectic yet funny' year for me... facing the fact that i cannot cope here and finally willing to accept it, accept my own limitations, finaly i poured out my thoughts, feelings and also views to my parents last night... emotions went uncontrolled till tears fell... i really felt very sorry for what i am, what i have did... decision i have made and the worst thing, to disappoint my parents high hopes on me.. I also do wan my parents to be proud of me, when i graduate in 3 yrs to come, when i am receiving my scroll on convocation day.. but, this is life i suppose.. things doesnt always turn out to be wad we wished it to be.. i have to accept the limitations i am with i don wan to get my degree jus for the sake of the degree... doing things blindly, studying blindly.. people like tat cant really excel in that field i supposed.. i might grad, might have to repeat courses... i know if i try, i can.. eventhough repeating few times.. but wads the point?? betting on something such uncertain?? enough for me!! enough!!.. tats really enough... so, make up my mind, packing my bags, leavin next sat back to kuching... will work for my dad.. something which i can handle well, and much more better than this course... and at the same time, see wad course am i going to do... i am going jus to take up something easy, go for it, finish it and tats it.. there is something much much more important for me to deal with back in kuching, rather than getting a degree.. an alinated degree.. a degree which i might get and have a feeling that i don really deserve it.. for the important thing i had jus mentioned, some might know what it is, some might not... but i would like to keep it to myself here.. don wish to mention it here.. Dont Judge a book by its cover.. a person might seems to be very strong, but actually they are very weak, fragile inside.. its really hard to be someone strong... someone whom everyone has confidence in.. someone whom everyone trusted so much.. its really hard.. hard to be someone strong...i don mean anything of anysense of giving up here.. Victory Belongs to those who believe in it the most and the longest..tats my believe all these while..Uni study isnt everything.. i still will gt on with life.. hoping to do the best in what i will be undertaking in jus a few weeks time... and i have much confidence that i will excel in it.. jus like when i was in Riam, miri...same kinda feeling.. and i trust my notion very well.. things that i have confidence in normally will jus turn out to be jus nice... to say that i am ok after making such a decision is really a big lie.. so many things, aspects to consider..things to worry bout, future to worry... my self respect.. everything.. might sound a bit down for sometime, but time will wash away everything i believe... to my parents, sorry that i have let u down... still remembering how happy dad was, treating all his friends at Joyous Shanghai, the gifts that i had received, for the reason i had been offered to uni, doin a degree.. and now, this is the fact, the hard fact that dad have to face... face all his friends... i noe it will surely be embarassing somehow...even now i also felt ashame for all the gifts that i had received.. but i want you to know, i am not born to fail, i am a high archeiver... i am born to suceed.. there is no failure in my dictionary.. cant do uni doesnt mean the end... i will prove myself to be someone useful, capable of doin big things... let time show it all... jus give me another 5 years... life will be different for u...i am also jus an ordinary human... i noe how it feels also... i also do feel disappointed for myself.. thank you both mum and dad for all the support these while, all the tolerance that u have with me... Revolution is going to become a reality for Min Soon now... jus wait n see.. i dont believe i m capable of doing nothing... No!! thanks a lot mum and dad.. and also to my friends... my pals, buddies, whom have been with me all these while.. thank you so much... really sorry for the shockin news.. disappointment that might pop up from ur hearts...sorry and thank you... and i would like to express my greatest gratitude to Ida, whom had been my ears all these while.. listening to both good and bad news especially since 2005... life will have been much more different without you i bet.. though u are jus a friend of mine.. a very special friend.. i do treasure u much.. very much... thanks for the bearing with me when i am down.. and sharing my joy with me.. thank you so much.. i really felt relieved everytime i share things with u.. be it good or bad.. thanks.. i think its no point for me expressing it here... words cant speak my feelings, thoughts.. i bet u noe wad i mean.. jus very grateful to be blessed with a friend like u... a blessing more than anything else.. each of us have their own way of life... get along with it well... Good luck, and God Bless you all!!.. will update soon... take care.. and to all my friends whom will be returning to Uni soon from kch, good luck, God Bless and God Speed.. may success always be with you guys..Stay Strong.. Nobody WalkS AloNe...

KM 107, Simunjan Slope.. , Bukit Bangunan Slope aka Lachau Slope, Kuching-Sibu Trunk road..

This is some of the pictures took
during road assesment to both places... High bumps on road ascending steep slope.. wad is the logic? HGVs need momentum to climb a steep slope like these and yet there are building high bumps.. Lachau slope.. a place fames with spilled oil on its road surface... slippery especially during rainy days...numerous jack-knife had happened here.. what is the federeal road maintenance board?? if it is around, wad is it doin??

Beginning of another period of HeCtiC LiFe 0oo0...!!!

here i am, back in Penang, after a week of mid semester break back in Kuching.. First day of class, already thrown with tons of works, assignments... and the worst thing, exams.. one after another... never ending here...Mind is full of due dates now... really wondering is life going to be like tat for the next 2 and a half years to come.. another thing that is really worrying me is Discrete Mathematics... and now even Pseudocodes.. programmin.. my maths foundation is really like hell.. and i still cant believe that here i am, doin all these again... wondering how am i goin to pass my final exam by the end of da year.. am i suitable for this course?? since they all say, u need strong maths background to solve problems, to write program... really thinking of giving it a try till end of the year.. and if things really gets worse... think i better had another plan... rather than wasting time here.. really not a point lar...!! someone tell me wad should i do!!!??? dont think anyone wil noe how i feel now... really lost all my self confidence in handling things.. which is something i really don like... don feel easy bout... someone tell me wad should i do!!!!carry on o change...??

Great holiday in Kuching.. A fantastic week..

Before it all happened, i was longing for the mid semester holidays to come.. and, as time passes, it camed, i went back to kuching.. alone.. in a lonely flight..dun really like to take 2 flights.. though i should be thankful that i have the chance to go back.. compared to those who cant have the chance.. shouldn't have complaines.. Now, half a semester is gone.. holidays for the mid sem is over.. and here i am, back in USM, Penang starting another war, a long journey towards buliding the floor for future.. hope i am right somehow.. in the field i am in... Holidays back in Kch was tremendous.. totally fun..

1. back on 27 August that is Sunday.. reached Kch after in and out of plane and airport since 7 in the morning.. finally i am in Kch by 1pm. Went for lunch with mum and sis and also Jenny.. went stright to school after that..for scout meeting.. haven seen all my pals for 2 months.. end up Jeremy ask me "U never been a Scout in you previous life ha?? Siaw ah??'..

2. Went out tat night.. with khee, han and also chieh ping..went indulging ice-cream, at a shop opposite of Hilton kuching.. newly open.. the ice cream is really fantastic eh.. highly recommended.. though it is pretty expensive.. RM4 for a scoop..khee in short pants ended up 'raped' by mosquitoes.. and so we shifted watchin movie...Snakes on A Plane... fantastic movie to watch.. somehow kinda funny also..

3. done a road accessment at KM 107, Simunjan Slope... ended up going further to Bukit Bangunan.. a very long steep slope, famed for its oil spill on the road surface.. causing accidents, rollover especially during rainy days..as for KM 107, govt built high bumps on the road ascending the slope.. i also dunno for wad.. should have built it on the descending path to slow down vehicles.. bumps are quite high till u can feel the 'bumps' inside ur car... slippery also during rainy days.. causing difficulty for HGVs to climb the steep slope.. about 60 degrees slope.. and so, took some photos of both slopes. written some comments, planning to lodge a complain.. ( not me, but is mummy since i am back in penang dy ).. after KM107, we cont to Lachau ( Bukit Bangunan ) and on the way, we stopped at Sungai Tengah.. my usual stop point for breakfast if we go Sibu early morning.. the ' seasoned duck ' there is really nice!!! haha.. though it sounds kinda crazy to eat seasoned duck some 130km from KCH.. but it is really nice.. till my mum bought another 3 back.. some for dinner.., some for friends.. tat day was really a driving day eh!!drove from 9 am til around 5 pm tat evening... went take ice kacang at pending after came down from Lachau.. my favourite.. famed for its red bean i think.. haha.. went back home, rested, and out again tat night..went to Waterfront to watch the rehearsal for National Day Celebration..Kuching is really changing its face this time.. with lots of resurfacing of road, painting, banners being put up, much more.. the stage was great, performance was even great...

4. most of us, esp those from 05th Kuching is really 'beh song' this time as our band is not involved in the parade on 31st August.. Why?? for sure is not cos we are not compatible.. even Riam, a newly formed band this year can do it.. why not us?? Its cos of the mishandling, miscommunication and I also dunno mis wad!! of Mr Samson, our new teacher in charge.. wondering wad is he doin, keeping the letter in his drawer for 2 weeks.. and only tell the major that morning that the inspector is coming tat afternoon for inspection of our band performance.. where are we going to asssmble all the members in such short time?? some are from afternoon, some morning.. and so, we are being put aside... for those who dun understand o noes the story behind the scene, think first before starting to move ur mouth, complanin, commenting on our band..!! think before u spill words..!! ask who is responsible. 13 yrs once and this is how we missed it>!! really kinda furious.. but for wadever it is, still i would like to congratulate Wee khee and arden and also Alex and those who are involved, for transforming our band into wad is it today.. Great work indeed!!

5. Went for futsal at Bintawa.. really kinda tiring, till some of my friends vomit after drinking water.. Went back home quite early, til mum asks ' wa, so early ah today'..

6. 30 August, eve of Merdeka day... was sleeping at home for the whole day... even i noe tat i haven even open my bag with books that i brought back... went to Tapanga Tree tat night quite early.. With ALvin, Wee Khee, Arden and also Chieh Ping.. Jeremy, Chun Han, Shean Thyng and also Wei Chen joined us after mid night.. Jia Han worked as bar tender there.. we went out, infront of Crowne to watch the fireworks, which is really nice and loud,.. i jus like the sound... and the colors of it.. wonderful.. sounds like artilery fire from a distance.. hehe.. went back.. and there comes Jeremy and his gang.. so we went outside, instead of stayin inside.. and there!! we dance like hell.. shouting like crazy ppl.. haha.. kinda lose myself.. and was sweating like wad for sure.. some even with JAlur Gemilang.. later, a chinese was bashed by by malays at BCB carpark.. police came.. but we jus don cared much..went inside, enjoyin the loud music.. Out of no where., i heard someone revving their car.. when i turned and looked outside into the carpark, people were fighting there.. not fighting, but is bashing.. two malays were bashed up by chinese, around 10 of them.. one more malay driving around, drifting in the car park with his kancil trying to chase away the chinese.. ended up his car kena smacked.. kicked.. they then pulled one of the malay near to the front door of Tapanga.. there i have a good look of that malay,, was bleeding profusely in his head.. shirt ripped into pieces.. with chinese shoutings heard loudly.. foul language.. lots of them.. one even took up a big stone, another with a helmet, wanting to smack it onto the malay, laid on the floor helplessly.. but luckily conscience drifted within them and they didnt.. i noticed a man, in leather suits, all black running up.. out of no where.. he pulled out his pistol.. shouting 'Police! Police!' ..."jangan gerak!' everyone then started to flee from the scene.. went down as i cant retrieve my car.. only to find the main exit is blocked by 2 patrol cars.. with policemen carrying MP5s.. so we took the back road.. exited from Mas building.. on da way, only then we found out that CHun Han, Jeremy was not with us.. called them and they were already at ground floor..went to Zhen How to have a drink and then there the ambulance came... it was around 2.50am then.. around 3 something... we 'bersurai'.. went back to Tapanga, looked for Jia Han.. and we parted.. Sent Chieh ping home after Chun Han.. My usual habit of driving in da nite is i don wait for red lights.. cross whenever it is clear, or safe according to my instict.. don wan ppl to come up from behind and rob ya while u are waiting for nothing for the green light. with that habit, finally i was caught that night.. by police.. i crossed the red light at the traffic light in front of Colors, and the car on the other lane, whom his lane is green light reported me to the Police.. On the way to chieh ping's house, i noticed a car following me from behind... but i ignored it.. til the dead end of chieh ping's house.. only then i noticed it is a patrol vehicle.. Guess wad.. the one who reported me is dunno wad police chief... The policeman insisted on summoning me.. but in the end, malaysian culture defeated him... he took RM50.. and let me off.. but this time its really kinda difficult to negiotiate with him eh... 2 of them... took me quite sometime... In the end, RM50 wins.. and i save RM300..haha..Chieh Ping went back home, packin, leavin for singapore early morning the same day.. haven even bought ticket.. and there, she is caught when MAS ticketing counter is closed to National Day.. haha.. a lesson eh.. so Air Asia was her carrier then..

7. Went to Planetshakers concert on 31st night... At ACS... the hall was packed with 3000 peoples!!!.. was really great... meet angela, Li Ern, and also Luciana.. who came back from Kelantan.. Later, went Iguana.. but no chance to sing.. too crowded..Ida was back tat day... haha...

8. went coffee bean, chat till it closed.. wonderful hearing life at other uni.. our 'tua pao' session was really long.. haha.. with Alvin, Khee, Arden, Angela, Jeremy, Tommy, Janice, See Sin... Tommy, Janice, See Sin was only back tat day.. 1st Sept..

9. went for Malaysia Scout Day at HQ on 3rd Sept.. the day i came back to Penang.. hiak hiak hiak... long time was not in my Scout uniform.. feels comfortable in it.. Arden went to Korea Jamboree.. came back with a lots of badges.. as gifts for me.. Thanks a lot pal..!!

10. Took kolo mee, dunno how many bowls.. RM1.20 mee twice.., laksa.. Went to Jade Pot, chatting somemore.. miss all those now... 2 and a half months more!! wait for me... haha.

... Lots more... wait till i think back and i will spill it here.. hav to go for lunch now.. till then.. take care all of u... whether back in KCH or still in uni.. have a nice time..God Bless..

Holiday Ending... Going back to Penang...

Holidays during end of August has been something i have been waiting for when i jus went to Penang.. It has came, and has finally come to and end now.. so i will be leavig Kuching, my hometown, back to Penang on 5.35pm flight later.. Holidays in kuching has been quite fun for me.. done a lot of things, went to a lot of places, watched quite some events happening.. haha.. don have the time to write it here.. so think i will find sometime to put it all here when i am back in Penang then.. tats the time where most of my time is with my computer... brought all my assignments and books back, intended to study, ended up didnt even open the bag.. tats all from me now.. still in my scout uniform.. haven bath.. the time now is 3.29pm... and my flight is 5.35pm.. so better get goin.. take care and enjoy ur holidays all my friends whom are jus back in kch few days ago..see ya then.. God Bless